Hello,

I am a 30 year old guy and I have never been an "emotional" person, it takes a lot to make me cry, I can pretty much count the times Ive cried in the last 15 years on just one hand. The last time I cried, I think was a few years ago when my grand-dad died, and then I cried for at most 5-10 minutes and that was it.

I have an ability to just stop thinking about stuff that hurts, like really stop thinking about it. To the Point that I almost cant start thinking about it even if I try, its just fuzzy images in my head. I have long thought that this "coldness" in me might be some kind of a disorder.

But now to my question. 2 days ago I opened my newspaper and read the article about the singer Christina Grimmie being shot dead at her consert this past Friday. And for some reason I alomst immediately got this strong feeling of grief and sadness and the feeling is still here, 2 days later, I cant stop thinking about it and reading articles online about it, it really touched me deeply, like nothing have done before in my life? And the thingh is that I had never heard about Christina before reading that article, I didnt know who she was, I never listened to her music before, nothing. But still her death affected me deeply for som reason? What can this mean?

I have never felt this way before, when my biggest idols has passed away before it has always been like "oh ok, too bad, whatever" and then move on. And as I wrote above, its has almost been this way whenever a loved on has passed away too.

Why do I feel this way now, for a stranger too me? And why do I feel this way to just this perticular person and nobody else? And what do I do about it?