I woke up this morning feeling very bad. I had a dream before I woke up that I was back in the past with my father and brother. I dreamt that my father was being abusive to my brother. It really was like that in the past. For some reason I never knew why my parents had something against my brother. My brother never turned out very good. And my brother had recently passed away. I think that he was in a lot of emotional pain for most of his life. So the dream brought all of that perspective to me.
Other than that, I went to the church that I was thinking of leaving. I had another church in mind, but I wasn't clear on when they start. I used to go to that church many years ago. I left there because I didn't like the way it had changed. But I thought that if I went back this time, it might change for the better. Well, there's always next Sunday.
I had my friend come over to my place for lunch. And then we talked for a bit. It was a pretty good time. It seemed like it didn't start off great at first. I guess he feels OK about me trying another church for myself. Also, at the reception area following the sermon, he seemed to be doing well talking to other people while the others ignored me.
It's back to work tomorrow. For the first time in ten years since I've worked there, I feel like I am dreading it. I never thought that it could come down to that.
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