I was ok in the morning then I had to call about a job (I thought I had) and she told me it was given to someone else and I didn't even get an interview. Well, that started it. I have been down all day to the present time. I have been thinking of death, because at least then I will have accomplished something. When I got home I took a nap but when I woke up it was even worse and the feelings are stronger. I just don't want to continue, but since I fail at everything, I'd even fail at trying to end it. It is not just the job, but my whole life is torture. I just want to be alone and cry.