ugh. petty rant time. okay - i hate how i can be feeling somewhat good about the way i look and can even feel a little cute. but then i see a picture of this beautiful girl - not even a model, but just a stunningly beautiful girl, and i'm reminded like a slap in the face.. that i'm a plain *** ugly ***** and nothing - no strategic clothing/makeup, no good lighting nor angles - will ever change that. sigh. okay, so maybe i'm not dog-ugly. so what? i'm not pretty either. i'm just plain, average, unremarkable. at least if i were hideous i'd stand out and people would remember me. i feel like i'm invisible, especially to men. it just gets me down because all i want is to be loved or at the very least paid attention to every now and then so i know i exist to others as much as i do to myself.