EV, I think this will get better with time. For me its because its that I still didn't trust enought. I'd want to talk about my stuff but after yrs of not having anyone listen to me I hadn't learnt how to trust..if emailing is the only way you can convey your pain for now, then thats ok. Part of you will be watching silently T's reactions to what you write, until one day, you suddenly blurt something out in session. Theres a saying in recovery, your right where you supposed to me.