Thank-you, I appreciate your help over the weekend, it was very helpful and I made better decisions because of it. I knew something was definately wrong on Thursday, I knew but it didn't make sense with all of the thoughts I was having. Grandiosity, etc.

Had I not slept as much as I did, and had I not taken a PRN the last 3 nights (I plan to again for at least a few days), I likely would have went downhill. It also helped that I limited my time the last couple days.

I still want to work on my project but in a more structured safe way. i was literally working on it from when I came home from work until midnight, and then getting up by 630 am.

One of my main goals right now is to maintain employment. And I was fit to work today, and I did well. I was not fit Thursday, Friday, Saturday or Sunday (I was off Fri-Sun). All of last week I did not do well, did one partial work from home day, and was basically falling apart towards the end of the week.

When my boss asks me if I'm OK, I seem a little off, I know that means I'm a lot off (she did on Thursday morning). She is a good friend and usually doesn't say anything. When I was nice and hypomanic about a couple months ago, and laughed a good part of the day, everyday, she didn't say a word. That was pre-lottery which had onset of I think 3 weeks ago now. I think there was a few weeks of fairly normal in between there. with the lottery, it burst out really intense for a week or so, I was so manic I didn't realize the extent of it. It felt so good in many ways. I thought for sure I was chosen. I had a couple experiences with what I thought were probably angels. Or a universal energy. Which I feel like there's a legit connection to when manic. I was smart enough to PRN, and I kept doing that for about a week, then reduced it, and within two days I was manic. I'm back on it since Thursday or Friday. That bothers me to know it can shift like that, and that I bear some amount of responsibility. I accept that and own it.

I'm really thankful I feel better. This is a much nicer place to be in than that other world.

As I said earlier, my kitchen is literally sparkling and that 'side effect' of the mania is kind of amazing, hah.

The rest of my work day went well, I do not have any carryover work going into tomorrow which is an automatic stress reducer.

Thank you again, and I will continue checking in this week. I can not say enough about how different I feel today than last week. Even just from yesterday, which I think was better than Saturday.