Thank you reddit for reopening the philosophical can of worms I thought I laid to rest. There's nothing worth worrying about here, but I can feel the anxiety. I hurt enough; I've been hurting today. The drugs aren't quite enough - I'm constantly nervous, even though some of these are issues I already worked out with others. I can feel it in my body and I hate it. I can't trust myself - my reactions are so different, I feel like a freak...