Oh my gosh, reading your msg has opened my eyes up to see im not the only one out there with these problems.
I am in a relationship with a guy who can be AMAZING when he wants to be and when it suits him, he has been physically abusive a few times the most recent the worst where he strangled me and told me to call the cops, knowing full well i wouldn't. He doesnt let me see my family or hates being around them. Gets sh###ty when i talk to my friends, calls me ever mane under the sun and then appologises and says how much he loves me. But for some stupid reason i love him more than anything. I feel so confused and it takes up every moment of my day in thought. I dont know what to do, i know i should leave but will miss the companionship i guess.