He told me before that if I did the inner child work in session, I would have to guide him on what I needed him to do. He said working on it at my own pace is ok, and that he would be there to help me if needed. So I have been doing it on my own.

I do have grounding skills, and I do have coping methods, I have stopped self medicating myself, and cutting it has been a month now since I have cut, I don't just drink anymore to kill the pain. I know how to ground myself, that isnt what I am freaking out about. What bothers me, is the way he handled things. Which triggered me once again, on all the old emotions and feelings!

Yes, it was a rupture, last session we set goals talked about how long this could take to work out all the emotions and feelings and how to process them. Yesterday's session he talked about stopping and taking a break, which I am not against, but it sounded to me like he was telling me to put the emotions and feelings back in the box and pack it away! And yes, I have a huge tendency to read into things, but that came with growing up in a abusive house, we had to read what was being said, that was the only way I knew if maybe that day I was safe for alittle while!!

Your not the only one that said it didn't sound like he was telling me to stop therapy for awhile. Maybe he isn't, sure sounded that way. He told me he would be there for me if something came up and I needed his support.

One of my problems is talking telling my feelings, saying what is on my mind. It would be great if he could work on this with me, right now I am so hurt that I am not sure what I want to do at this time.

When I got to session yesterday, he had placed a paper clip on the couch for me, I guess he figured it would help, normally it does, but I just shut right down yesterday, like a steel door slamming shut!!