I've been there. They can't hurt you. Are you on any meds? I've had these same thoughts before. Just keep it in your mind that even though things can get close, they can't really hurt you. It took me 16 years to find the right meds and 13 to find a good therapist. You need someone to talk to about it, and realize you are wide awake in a dream you can't turn off. Fight the demons. Do not fear them.

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