I am just wonering if anybody here has been addicted to any ampetamine-like substances?

I was first introduced to adderall when I was 17 years old. I am now 29 and have been using adderall/methamphetamine/phentermine/Etc. almost daily for the past umpteen years. Anything that's an upper. I don't even her high anymore, I literally do it to stay awake and have energy. Since I started, I can honestly say I haven't been sober for even an accumulative year. ****ing sad. I'm scared to get sober because I've spent my entire early adult life using, and I'm not sure how I would do...well, life...without them. I'm miserable. I'm always stressed. I'm grumpy, irritable, moody, not to mention broke. I would say I spend anywhere from 600-1000 a month on meth at this point. So far I've gotta away with being a "functioning" addict, but my tolerance has become disgustingly high that I'm barely able to afford it without it being obvious somethings going on. Im looking for support from fellow users.

I might add, I have a 4. Year old daughter and I want to be someone she's proud of, not someone she's ashamed of. I don't want to cause her emotional baggage when she's older.