Appointment today with nurse practitioner who prescribes my meds. 20 minutes every 3 months. I am thinking I need to start seeing a talk therapist again, but I don't feel like it. I haven't been taking my meds consistently for awhile now, just pop one occasionally the last 4 days. Otherwise, haven't really taken them since I think it was March 6th (I have that written down somewhere). I had gotten this alarming dispenser, and started to lvl out, but got sick and blamed meds and bla bla bla from there. The med dispenser was great, but really friggin loud. Like a fire alarm was going off in the house 4 times a day. ( I am supposed to take 11 daily). Have had a couple bad episodes, but I don't really care. I over eat so often, and am so fat that I don't want anyone to look at me and I don't let people take pictures of me. My husband says I am not fat, but what does he know. I need the mania to help me not eat and get skinny again.