I find therapy not only useful, but it helps me greatly and has saved my life. So in general it is "worth it" but in my current state I just wonder if there is a way to keep the attachment in perspective while in the throes of it.
Maybe therapy makes me produce crazy amounts of oxytocin or something. It fees drug like and unrealistic but so intoxicating. I am just wondering if that's a side effect or part of what makes therapy work.

I worry that I need to be super critical and choosy with the next T. A bad T could completely take advantage of someone like me, who craves that sense of love whether it is real or not.

I knew it was unlikely that I would see CBT forever as I've moved for jobs before.

It's like my dog died and I want to run out and get a new puppy without grieving properly. But with all of this change I really need support. Feeling lost