I don't think I'm manic but I'm obsessing pretty heavy and getting lost in it again. Things were really clear earlier and I did well with organizing things for a couple hours. Now when I look at it I feel lost. Have been working on it a few hours. Hard to put down. But I have got to.
I took a small dose of risperdal when I got home from work bc was really irritable. I'm going to keep doing that plus taking the bigger HS dose that I've been doing. This sucks. I'm on to something and sometimes it flows well and is very clear, other times it gets tangled up and I can't make anything out of it.

I need to stop for tonight but I have to have things ready for tomorrow and I don't do well if I'm rushed. So, again, this sucks. And again, I'm not manic just obsessing some. This isn't how it was but is more like it today than yesterday. I thought I was really well yesterday. Work makes it challenging to stay in a good place when I'm not my most well. it also gives me the structure I need to stay as well as possible which is the big goal.