Maybe you should see a therapist you don't like?

Haha, I'm actually only half-kidding about that. When I read accounts on here about instant rapport, intense rapport, or, well, rapport in general, it often freaks the HELL out of me. There was a part of me that always wondered if I was doing therapy wrong--or if the fit was bad--because I didn't feel that way about my therapist. The rest of me knows I would RUN if I began to feel intensely about a T.

Maybe it's the unhealthy avoid-er in me speaking right now, but sometimes I feel incredibly grateful that I didn't and don't have a mystically, intensely good rapport with my T. It sounds painful as hell. I didn't even like my T when I first met him. I thought he was an idiot. I only stuck with it because I didn't have the energy to do anything else.

A year and a half later, I'm fond of my T. Fonder probably than the situation really warrants, but it's not because he really "gets" me or knows me or understands me better than anyone else. He tries to, which I respect about him. I think he's a good therapist and could list the reasons why. I think he's smart and can be funny. He's been helpful.

I don't know. What do you think would happen if you saw a T you didn't really like that much? Would the attachment develop, anyway? Is the attachment an important part for you, and therapy wouldn't be helpful, otherwise?

I hope you find a solution that works for you. Good luck.