Dear current T,

I haven't done my homework. I'm trying, but it's hard because I don't feel much. I think that's my protector, according to schema therapy. I'm not doing it on purpose. I just have this whatever-feeling. And all I want to do is lay in bed and watch dumb television.
This has been going on for about 2 months, I think. When T went on leave, the first week I was kind of feeling alright. But then I started to feel lots of anger and also pain/sadness. And now I don't feel any strong feelings. I do feel a bit down, but I haven't got much thoughts going on in my head. It's like I get used to such things. That it's to be expected. Everyone will leave me at some point. Nobody thinks I'm important. Therapist only pretend to be interested, only for 45 minutes once a week.

You say you are more open about the client-therapist relationship and such. But I find it hard to believe that you, a T, could actually like me or think I'm important. You're not only a T, you're also a human being. But it seems that T's and pdoc's can switch their feelings of for clients. I find it hard to believe a T could actually care for a client. No previous T has ever said if they care or find me important or anything.

But whatever. Will you be disappointed when you see that my paper is almost totally empty?