I dont think some people realize they are even doing it. I remember being in the hospital ER and they staff almost treated me with anger. Like I was an inconvenience and they are just their because they have an obligation to treat me but clearly didn't want to.

The thoughts in my head that I couldnt verbalize was "I'm sorry for almost dying and being in so much pain I couldn't cope. Next time I'll do it right or in the very least I won't bother the medical system with my imaginary, burdensome mental illness. I'm sure everyone has more important things to do rather than give me any caring or compassion. "

Most people don't understand mental illness because they try to relate to their life. We all use our experiences to relate. People that have never suffered from depression or other illnesses can't understand what it feels like. There is a lot of pain you just carry around and deal with that people don't see or don't know it is there because when you reach out you are met with in validation which just makes how you feel seem like your fault and you're just a bad or broken person.