For me, the intimacy part of cutting gets to be very problematic. Because it's not just being private- but it's about isolating myself. I like to cut and hide it from people. But lately I'm coming out of that. I feel the responsibility to tell my regular T about it. I feel like I owe it to the therapeutic relationship with her, because we are a team in getting me better so I need to do my part. I also feel like I owe her honestly. Although the new T that I'm seeing, if he didn't ask me directly I wouldn't tell him. I don't know how long I'm going to be in therapy.
Anyway, I think in ways that the intimacy thing is about setting up some kind of boundary and that's positive. But I also think it sometimes just makes our problems worse because it makes us more isolative.
Angela
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