oh my..you have been through a lot!! Are you on meds? Do you think they help you? Its also okay to get a second opinion from a different psychologist if you don't feel like you are getting the help you need. That is important. It seems you do have some issues in the schizophrenic, schizoaffective or some area.. given the voices you feel you hear and delusions perhaps. The important thing is do you feel like your T is helping you with these things. Do you feel reasonably supported by her?