I don't seek treatment for my depression because I can't trust doctors. I'm afraid if I tell them I need "help" they will ask to many questions & I will say the wrong thing that will get me locked up in a hospital again. Even just thinking about going to a doctor as I write this post raises my anxiety level. Every time I have gotten up the courage/stupidity to schedule an appointment with a doctor by the time it comes around my anxiety is so high it is making my physically sick.

I don't really consider this treatment resistant because I'm not seeking treatment. I'm literally to afraid to seek treatment. Maybe I'm just that screwed up.