Today was really stressful I've been holding so much in for the past year. About 7 months ago my boyfriend was on his way to cheat on me with a girl he met that night I caught him on the way over there. So fast forward 7 months later we are both working a lot over 40 hours a week we still spend time together and we still love each other but I feel like my love for him changed it's not like it used to be and since I started my new job I developed a serious crush on a coworker which I just wish would stop I try to avoid the guy and I'm even trying to switch my hours so we don't work together because I can't get tangled up in an affair.
So today I was just so upset about it and I felt like I was lashing out on my boyfriend because I had this secret I was keeping so I finally just told him we both cried and said we will both go back to couples therapy regularly again. I feel better that I told him but I still feel sad about everything and feel worried about our relationship in general.