Hello! Thank you for sharing with us, and I am terribly sorry for the events that have occurred. I have never been married, but I can relate to loneliness and having trust issues in relationships. It can be extremely helpful to reach out to your support groups. This can be a group like this, family, friends, and perhaps a counselor as well. Also, finding hobbies can be helpful. These times can be so very confusing and upsetting, but allowing yourself a healthy outlet can be beneficial. Often times, individuals find exercising to be a great stress reliever. Again, I am sorry that you are going through all of this. Thank you for sharing, and I hope things start to improve