So I finally worked up the courage to ask my T for a hug. We had an in depth discussion about it but I didn't get a hug. I kind of expected that but I'm still disappointed. I'm still not sure how I feel about the whole thing. I think I'm a bit angry but I don't know.

I also told my T about my SH . We spoke a lot about that and things got kind of overwhelming for a bit and everything except for T went kind of fuzzy.

We then somehow got back to me feeling disappointed when my needs aren't met and I said usually I will just abandon the relationship in hopes that the other person will reach out to me. There was some more stuff I think but yeah... Still trying to process everything.