thanks for replying

right now im on vacation and away from my doctor so i wont be trying something on my own. my doctor is a very nice and introspective person so i think shell know what to do. i trust her completely.

my voices usually come around at evening. ive named some, they are the standard wherever i am and i can tell theyre voices altho they bother me with negative comments etc. the ones which are harder to tell come from actual people. i go to the mall and think everybody is talking about me, so i rather stay alone than mix with crowds.

i take 17 pills daily and i think theyre clouding my mind. im also on two doses of depot. i want to go to university but i hope i can handle it, the crowd in a classroom and the concentration to study.

i miss some parts of psychosis which were so tangled with my personality that i now feel like a part of me is missing. mostly my quest for a greater meaning, my philosophical ideas and being tied with karma.

i only function partly, most of the time im tired or asleep. i gained a lot of weight and i see foggy. i also did a lot of drugs so some of this may be drug related

p.s. before taking meds i could not tell i had voices. i thought it was really all happening