I don't have much to say but I believe we are not driven by a divine force and there isn't a plan laid out that will be followed. I think our lives are our own and we get the choice in how to live.

I don't believe there is anything after this. We exist and then we don't.

I think you are entitled to believe what you want. Some people feel connected to religion and an eternity in heaven, some people cannot stomach the idea.

I wish you luck in resolving this conflict.