I feel very much the same way. When I'm at home, I feel like I'm the only one who lives alone. Well, I'm not the only one who lives alone. My two neighbors live alone, also, but it seems like they have so much going on with people and things. There's a guy who lives next door to me on the same level. He's a nice guy and enjoyable to talk to. But I hardly see him. He's very busy with work and has a nice girlfriend that he spends a lot of time with.
A woman that lives below him lives alone, also. She has a lot of family members visiting her and has friends. I don't like her. When I go to the pool area, I really feel like life is happening so much to others and not me.

I don't feel as much as an oddball at where I work. There may be others at where I work that may feel the same way I do. But I don't know that because I don't get intimate with the people at my job. There seems to be quite a few that don't have real good social skills.

And then when I go to church, I really feel "shown off" on how bad I am. When I'm with my friend, he would very often look off when I'm talking to him; and then he would flag others to join him. When the others come, they just talk to him and totally ignore me. It's stuff like that is the reason I want to leave that church.