I feel the same way. Even if I had a car, there's no proof I'd use it to make new friendship by going to the senior center. I'm supposed to, though, according to a clinician who evaluated me in March.

I'm getting so horribly lonely.

I agree about the church experience, if you feel less than welcome there, I'd be off exploring new ones.

Will, your friend sounds downright rude after church. He looks away while you're talking, to widen your circle after church. I guess he doesn't mean for that to be insensitive but it sure sounds like it to me.

Still, a large part of the church experience is to convene with people who share a similar outlook, and make friendships. Even if your friend weren't acting rude, I'd advise you to try other churches. It has to contain enough possibilities as possible. Friendships, spiritual guidance, etc.

I don't mean to be rude to say these things, just hope to encourage you, Will, to find a church that's better for you. And let your friend have his Sunday time to use on all his church friends.

ETA, that should be, let your friend have his church time to be with his other church friends. My mom is in her late 80s and I just know she'd do the same things as your friend. Luckily, i moved 800 miles away from her with no plans to go back.

I know you often use Sundays to hang out with your friend. You could still do that, but without the same church time. I hope things are going to get better. Right now I feel like my life is going to be nothing more than worsening of everything until I'm finally gone from the planet.