I'm sorry for what someone did to you. It sounds like a lot of pain to deal with.

Instead of running away, what about going to the ER and saying how you are feeling. If they think you are a danger to yourself they will hold you for 72 hours. You would be able to talk to someone and maybe get some help.

If I were in your shoes I would do that over running away.

Soon you will be 18 and you can see or talk to anyone you want. I'm sorry your parents are not giving that to you.

I remember telling my uncle that raised me I wanted help and was going to talk to a doctor. His reply was "You don't need to see a head doctor. There isn't anything wrong with you."

Some people don't get what it is like to suffer in that way. There is help out there and you are not alone in people who understand abuse. There are support groups and therapists out there who can help. I wish you had those resources available to you today.

Your pain is real even if your family refuses to acknowledge it. I'm sorry you have such an invalidating family. It's not fair and you deserve better.