I don`t care what people think of me. I am in my own little world and that is where I stay. I had a Funeral last Thursday for my wifes step dad, they loaded me up on so many pain pills and valium so I could handle the couple hours being out of bed. Them Saturday, my youngest daughter got married. I had to load up on everything again, just so I could walk her down the aisle. I would have done it in a hospital bed, if I had to!. After the wedding thou, my wife took me home and I went straight to bed. I am sorry I missed a lot of things but none of these people know how much pain I am in everyday and how much I hate being around people. That is just me. I do not like people anywhere near me and it will be that way until I die in a few years!!!