Thanks to everyone so far. I have asked my therapist and she is vague in her answer. Several years ago she did freak out over something I said and called my emergency contact to try to get them to commit me. Needless to say it didn't happen. It took me a while to trust her again but I know she wants to keep me safe. Now I said a few things about cutting and she got those panicked eyes. I keep assuring her it isn't enough to die, it's just how I'm expressing my emotions right now, but I'm afraid to talk anymore about it since I know she tends to blow things up. I like her as a person/therapist but I get the feeling after these years she still doesn't know what to do with me. My pdoc doesnt seem too worried but Nothing seems to rile him up, but I just never know and don't want them to contact anyone or be shoved in the hospital. Frustrated wth trying to figure this out. Is it a sign that I don't trust them? Ugh.