*just woke reliving the Hospital Emergency ward the night my girl died. What do you call that anyway, a dream? a nightmare? a flashback? And why?? What's the purpose in reliving it all anyway? DOESN'T CHANGE ANYTHING!!! Makes me soooooooo angry, & scared, & lost & sad & alone. Now i'm crying. This sucks!

And how selfish am I acting all wounded when this happened to my girl? on my watch? Wish it would go away.

Tidal wave of debris

Guess i should get up, light a candle for my girl. Don't wannna be awake today.