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Originally Posted by Wandering Soul
Have you ever felt that you are beyond repair? Few years ago I would see myself successful socially and financially, and that hope allowed me to sacrifice a lot, but now I'm so desperate and hopeless because even though I have a relatively decent job (I could earn 3 times as much if I have the energy and motivation), I don't have anyone in my life to share it with or at least enjoy it with, and it's not going to happen any time soon. I feel so isolated that my whole life is meaningless. I see all these people enjoying their times together when I go out, while I'm so alone and sad. I'm just killing time these days and wishing something happens to me, and ends this suffering called life.
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Yes, I also feel beyond repair. I've had enough, and I'm empty inside. Watching people around me and seeing that they are in loving relationships and so happy and free only makes that feeling even worse. Even when I do meet someone, I only seem to attract emotionally unavailable people......and I don't think I'm emotionally available either. I feel very isolated and that I'm on the outside looking in on everyone else. Where do I even begin? I'm lonely and feel I have a hole in my heart, and I try to fill it (sometimes with things that aren't good for me), but really I'm just trying to seek relief from the hell I feel.
It's hard to get by in a state of mind like this, but hang in there! Hugs!