I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow. The problem is, I'm totally manic right now.

Basically, Adderall triggered a very paranoid mania, and now I'm getting crazy hallucinations. Like, I'm seeing "lights" coming out of my wall and "shining" on me... But hell, I know there are no lights in my walls! I'm also getting paranoid delusions... I'm able to realize they're delusions... for now. (For example, I'm thinking that someone installed those "lights" to spy on me... but then I was like, "wait. I have no lights, so there's no one watching me.")

How do I bring this up to my therapist without getting committed? My insurance charges $750 per day for IP, which I simply can't afford. If I could afford it, I would go.

I just want my therapist to help talk with my pdoc to curb my mania before I completely lose touch with reality.

Also, I've stayed up for almost 48 hours straight. I don't feel tired yet either. I'm too energetic. I'm going nuts! I want to sleep so that I don't stay up for 4 days and pass out from exhaustion... because that's where I'm heading.

Also, I've only eaten 4 Oreos in the past 48 hours. That's it; no other food. Adderall had murdered my appetite!