I'll try to be succinct. Long term GF (8 years). We are currently geographically separated. She's working at the South Pole, I was there earlier this year but wasn't able to get a job for the winter. She is there until November. We've had a rocky time of things. Much due to my mental issues, maybe depression more likely cognitive thought issues. Point being I'm not without fault here. But we've been apart for 4 months now and will be apart for at least 5 months. She wrote me today telling me that she has strong emotional and physical feelings for another guy down there. A married guy at that. She says she hasn't acted on them yet but she suspects that she will. She has no interest in a long term relationship with this guy because he has kids and she doesn't want that responsibility. She, well they, are going to **** up a pair of relationships and harm his kids just because they are bored and lonely and want to get laid. And it just hurts so much. I gave up my career and all the security that comes with it to try to make things work with her. I left my home and everything that made me feel safe and secure. And she's going to toss it away for a fling, nothing more than that. It just hurts so much. I want to kill myself. I had nowhere to go so I ended up with a gig housesitting on a small island off the coast of nicaragua. I've got no friends here. There is no support for this sort of thing on the island. I just feel so crushed.