So my T talked about trying to help me to find a way of staying present sometimes because as the work gets deeper there is a possibility I might 'check out' a bit more. We talked about me reaching out for something to hold but to be honest I get frozen, it is like I have checked out of my body when it happens, luckily not too often but it would still be a good idea to find a way to bring me back. So I suggested if I got a cuddly toy and if it could live with her she could bring it to me when she noticed it was happening. She said we could certainly do that.

So I got a purple teddy bear which smells of berries, I thought the scent might help too, but I need to think of a name. I wondered if anyone would care to offer a suggestion?