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Originally Posted by lizardlady
posted by DechanDawa
I believe my suicidal wishes had several sources. In part I was in an abusive marriage, but thought everything that was wrong was because I was such an effed up B. In part I'd learned some ugly depressive ways of thinking. Finally I needed meds. Whether depression is caused by problems with brain chemistry or not, I don't want to get into that debate with people, I have to have meds to function. I need meds to not be depressed. Years ago my pdoc and I tried weaning me off my meds. We did it the right way. I used a gradual step down method. One day shortly after I was off the meds I realized that I was making plans to kill myself. It scared the holy bejeebers out of me. I called my pdoc that very day, got in to see him
ASAP and got back on meds.
I don't know if I agree with the author you read saying psychic pain comes from unmet psychological needs, but I do agree that suicidal urges come from psychic pain.
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I really liked how you described your experience with meds without making it sound like it is
the way. The few times I have been on SSRI's I have had really bad experiences and now I don't think I want to go that route. However, I am going to a psychiatrist to discuss the possibility of other options. What I get from you is the message, "Keep trying..." because something will work and it is worth the effort. That's an uplifting, comforting message. PS Funny you mentioned about disagreeing with that author about "thwarted psychological needs" because I had the same response! Sometimes, I think, depression and suicidality blossom in an invalidating environment, as you pointed out, and I also happen to know this territory well. So I am now working on removing myself from ALL invalidating crap (usually thrown out by malignant narcissists) even if it means going No Contact with some of my relatives, which makes me sad, but if they are going to hurt me and not help me when I am in this vulnerable place, they have to go. So yeah, I have a "psychological need" to be respected now!
Thanks for your input. I have found your feedback very helpful and I hope the OP will forgive me for hijacking this thread a bit.
