im the same way... i dont do anything because of this

unless i end up turning to my old friend alcohol...
or pop a few benzos... or some pills...
or smoke a ton of pot...
or all of the above...

which even when i do those things i end up being like just staying home and to myself anyway because really dont feel like doing anything anyway ..

i would just be honest, 'you know how much i want to see this, but i am so anxious... the crowd will be so big... and i just dont think i can do it...'