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Originally Posted by ramonajones
OK, I am TRULY sorry you're suffering with this but honestly SO relieved to hear someone else is experiencing it too. I have spent a small fortune on therapy, psychiatry, a dozen different homeopathic treatments and more, so if a Taurine drink really helps the situation, I'm willing to shell out the money for it! I'm going to try it this weekend!
So, today, I woke up around 8:15--the panic/sadness wasn't as bad as it is some days but it was definitely there. All morning. I think it's letting up now. I made myself a very extensive schedule for the day making sure every minute was occupied so I just had something to do the whole time and just kept plowing through my morning. Still had really difficult obsessive thoughts, but I was exercising during them so I just ran even harder. Ugh. This is REALLY hard.
The one good thing is I feel like if I ever get through this I will be the strongest person I know.
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Yes. What a positive attitude! I truly
do believe that getting through this would make you the strongest person you know! Unless people have experienced depression and/or agitated depression they absolutely cannot understand how difficult it is. I also have been doing the "keep busy" thing and yes, it does help a little. I am also making written contracts with myself to stay away from depressive thoughts for 24 hour periods. This is weird, I know, but I promise myself (in writing) that I will do everything in my power to behave like my "old" self, who was much hardier and more resilient than my present self.
I had to take my old truck to my mechanic today and am looking at possibly $600 in repairs! Yikes! (I was procrastinating going to the mechanic but I am moving in two weeks...so could no longer procrastinate.) I knew it was going to be harrowing (and expensive) to see my mechanic so I wrote up my contract to remain
emotionally regulated no matter what. Sometimes I feel like I am trying to punch my way out of a dark little box. I am going to do it!!!
So, now I am using 24 hour written contracts with myself to do everything in my power to stay positive.
Let me know if you try the energy drinks with taurine. Make sure you look on the can because not all energy drinks have taurine. I might give it another try.
Take care.
