Hello Bishtaw: Well... "live-&-learn" is the obvious thing here I guess. You're young. You've never done something like this before, you took a chance, & you've learned a bunch of things as a result. Maybe you'll try this again at some point or maybe not. But what you've learned as a result of this effort will no doubt come in handy in the future. You're just beginning to test your wings, so to speak. There's no embarrassment there, from my perspective. Please try not to beat yourself up. Everyone has to start somewhere...