I'm the youngest of 8. My father passed away when I was 4. My mom attempted suicide like 7 times. I was like 7 when that started happening. One of my sisters who was still at home became my mom for awhile. I was very scared as a child. During kindergarten my mom let me stay home all the time bc I was so scared to go. When I did go one of my other sisters would have to come and eat lunch with me or I wouldn't eat. My mom finally got into therapy when I was 11. Something really traumatic happened to me when I was 14 and my mom blamed me for it. I had a lot of trauma in my teen years. Domestic abuse, among other things. My teen years were really tough. And my mom practiced tough love so we didn't get along really at all during my teen years.

But in my 20s my mom and I grew very close. She was my rock. My mom passed away in 2007. I went into a long deep dark depression. I miss her very much. Now I'm a lot closer to my sisters. I would say her death really effected me. My childhood and teen years and some things that happened in my early 20s effected me for a long time. But with therapy I've been able to overcome it. But I always wondered what it's like having a dad...

But now it's my sisters and I basically. Took some adjusting but we get along pretty well now. Since I've been medicated it's even better, lol.