You know... some parents don't know what love is or they have a messed up idea of what they think it is. They also have twisted ways of controlling their children, even if they are adults. I grew up in this kind of environment.

One thing that my mother said to me that I will never forget and it will always hurt me is this: "You never let me make out of you what I wanted you to be." In her eyes, I was a total failure and a waste. She never knew the real me.

Your mother couldn't just let you go because apparently you were completely under her control. That's not love... but then, your mother may not know that. My mother didn't know it either.

Now that you're out of the house, don't allow your mother to continue controlling you. DO what YOU think is best, THINK what YOU think is best, BE what YOU think is best for YOU. Not anyone else. It's not an easy road, Sweety. It's going to be difficult to not listen to the old tapes we have programmed in our heads. You see, we have to give ourselves new tapes, new and better things to believe in.

Keep talking to us and we'll help you get through this very hard time.

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