my first relationship lasted 6 years, I left because of abuse that had been going on 5 of those years (it was only physical for maybe the last 2). my second relationship lasted 6 years, I married him after the first year, and everything seemed good and now I found out he has been cheating on me along with some very horrible other things and I'm leaving him (this one was sudden and forced as he is actually not allowed to come to the house). and I feel like maybe I'm just not meant to find someone who is a nice decent person, maybe I'm not supposed to be happy, and yes I know I shouldn't need someone to be happy and I don't but I do need some level of love, (oh and I've never "friend zoned" anyone because I've never been single for more then a few months), maybe they were good decent people and something about me just turns them into these major assholes two completely different personality men turn out to be such jerks, only thing i see in common is me.........