For what it's worth you're not alone here. There are many people on this site that are here and willing to listen. A few have even responded to this particular thread. We may not always have the answers but we are willing to listen. Regardless of what you say no one will look at you any differently. Sometimes just talking about it helps. So feel free to jump on here at anytime & talk about whatever you're comfortable with. You will always find someone willing to listen. What you won't find is people judging you. I have news for you. Everyone on here has problems. That's why we're all here. No one's problems is any less significant than anyone else's. I hope you can get this worked out.