It's a process for me too. It took me about 2 months to open up a little and about a year to feel very safe with T. Not entirely, I didn't get there by the time I ended therapy. I wanted to gradually work towards termination, but the idea of having to let go of my T caused such grief that I couldn't handle taking it slowly.

There was some unfinished business and also some new issues arrived, that's why I got back in therapy about a year later. In the beginning, I had to get used to him again. There was still a connection and I still trusted him, it just took a little time to open up again. Now I'm doing quite well and I leave more time between appointments. My T fills another role in my life, I don't lean as much on him anymore. That's probably very healthy and it must mean that I'm making progress. But it does make it harder to disclose sometimes.