The counseling session is still on.

It so hard cause I care for him, but so many broken things. He said the last time he was caught snooping my phone he would never do it again and then he does it again. Its the story of our entire marriage, we say something is going to change and it lasts a week then is back to the old ways. I have very little faith that things can change.

We are great together when we are with the kids or other people or talking about everyday random crap. But when it comes to us, its always hard and stressful. I slept on the couch last night and was able to relax and sleep for the first time in a long time. Most nights I wake up with tension throughout my shoulders and spine. I didn't wakeup once last night and you can't tell me its because my mom's 20 year old couch is more comfortable then my bed.