I don't know how to explain this. I am so anxious right now. My kids father is taking them to a birthday party and once again I am panicking. I don’t know why, at first it was like maybe I feel left out since we always do this stuff together until he told me that everyone hates me. And he would just bring me because he feels bad that I don’t have any plans. But I think about it and why the hell would I be anxious of him taking the kids to a kid birthday party? I really get pissed and crippled with anger. My heart is racing and I want to cry. Please help me.