Thread: Contradictions
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Old Jun 18, 2016, 12:55 PM
WanderingBark WanderingBark is offline
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Hi all,

I wonder if I could ask the community for their input on this situation I've found myself in. A year ago, I started going to a therapist because I was worried I might be clinically depressed. I didn't look around for different therapists, thinking that they are all pretty much the same. I went to the first person I found who ended up being (what I believe to be) my perfect match. However, after the first couple of meetings, he determined that I wasn't clinically depressed, but that I should keep coming to therapy because if I tried to work through some of my other baggage, what symptoms I did have (anxiety, low self-esteem, sleepy too much etc.) would go away.

I remember a particularly difficult session a few months ago when T asked why I started therapy. I said I wanted to be evaluated for depression especially since I know it can be genetic and one of my parents has bi-polar borderline personality disorder. T replied saying that I could have googled the symptoms and made my own conclusion so he asked again what was the real reason I came to therapy to which I didn't have an answer.

Fast forward to now. My fiance and I have been seeing a couples therapist. Our couples therapist is wonderful and it turns out she is also a very close friend of my T. At first, I was worried that she wouldn't be as good as my one on one T, but when I voiced my concerns to my T, he said that our couples therapist is a very close friend of his and that I could trust her and that he trusted her. So....when our couples therapist suggested I go see a psychiatrist, I trusted her opinion and decided to follow through. I told my one on one T about this and he said that he thinks the psychiatrist she referred me to is excellent and that if I felt like it was something I wanted to pursue that I could trust this particular psychiatrist.

After my first appointment with the psychiatrist, he determined that I'm clinically depressed. He said that it would take a few more meetings to determine which specific type of depressed (situational, uni-depressed, bi-polar depression, etc.) I am but that I am certainly a good candidate for medication and that we should go down that road. I'm feeling lost and somewhat betrayed by my one one one therapist. I don't know if I can trust his expertise anymore. I thought he was helping me and certainly some of my symptoms have gotten better although they come and go. I don't know what to do. Should I confront my T about my feelings? Is it normal to have contradicting diagnosis? I know psychology is more....dynamic (?) and pin-pointing a diagnosis can be challenging but I thought major diagnosis like this would be pretty clearly defined.
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