It is nearly 6am and I still haven't slept. I am so tired I feel like I am about to cry I just want to make it to my appointment in a few days with my psychologist unless he cancels again I want to scream the demons were whispering again only this time is sounded like one of the was screaming in pain I feel like that is my fault I don't know what to do. I can't go to the hospital again I can't they will hurt me there it is not safe there. I don't feel good.