Sorry, I just don't post here, but maybe you guys have some opinions on how to help with this situation.
Anyway, I've been hearing derogatory command and non command voices. They have been telling me I'm worthless, and telling me to kill myself etc. They are quite disturbing and are very distinct voices/personalities. Also I've been seeing stuff like a man wielding a life in my room, or a presence who I call shadow man who wants to hurt me. I've been convinced I'm going to die this year before I turn 25, and no one can convince me otherwise, it has gone from a fleeting thought to full on believing it and I'm scared to tell anyone with fear I'll be threatens with hospital again. Idk what to do, I believe people can hear my thoughts, and are even puting thoughts into my head. Idk what to do, I believe this stuff whole heartedly, and frankly Im scared, idk what's happening to me. I had to go off Latuda due to it stopping working on me and am now on 20mg of Abilify. It's calming the agitation I get, and some anxiety, but idk if it's working in the other symptoms yet or if I'm experiencing"breakthrough" symptoms. Sorry for the rambling rant, I can't think straight right now, too many thoughts in my heat at the moment. So if anyone can give me some advice/opinion, that'd be great.