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Originally Posted by OctobersBlackRose
Hey I'm back, been feeling really depressed lately, at least I think it's depression, no motivation to get out of bed, etc. Been hearing derogatory command and non command voices. They have been telling me I'm worthless, and telling me to kill myself etc. They are quite disturbing and are very distinct voices/personalities. Also I've been seeing stuff like a man wielding a life in my room, or who I call shadow man who wants to hurt me. I've been convinced I'm going to die this year before I turn 25, and no one can convince me otherwise, it has aren't from a fleeting thought to full on believing it and I'm scared to tell anyone with fear I'll be threatens with hospital again. Idk what to do, I believe can hear my thoughts, and are even pu5ting thoughts into my head. Idk what to do I believe this stuff whole heartedly, and frankly Im scared, idk what's happening to me. I had to go off Latuda due to it stopping working on me and am now on 20mg of Abilify. It's calming the agitation I get, and some anxiety, but idk if it's working in the other symptoms yet or if I'm experiencing"breakthrough" symptoms. Sorry for the rambling rant, I can't think straight right now...  |
Just let it be: there's nothing you can do about it so being frightened serves no purpose. Even if you'd die before age 25, that's what'll happen, then accept. Use the time you have left for other things than fearing things or beliefs you can't do anything about (other than taking your antipsychotic and lowering anxiety).
Lowering your fear and anxiety
will however
also make your symptoms less severe. So that's really all you can do. Accept the "inevitable". If you're afraid of losing your mind, remember that you won't. Beliefs and perception may change temporarily, but it will change back to something more consistent, true. It's just a psychotic reaction to anxiety. It will get better.
Also eat well, try to sleep or rest and drink enough water or some juice or something. No black tea or coffee. If you smoke cigarettes, smoke a cigarette (or more).